Long time no post...

 Ughhh, I'm so sorry y'all... I totally forgot about posting anything but to be fair, there's not much going on in my life lately.

I'm just glad that it's starting to get hot again because I can't wait to go swimming and lay under the sun all day, well.. at least until I finally get a job again (yes guys I'm currently unemployed but that's another topic :'] ) 

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Anyways, I've passed the theoretical test of my drivers licence!

I'm so glad because I really thought I wouldn't but I made it WOHOOO!!!

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Things with my boyfriend are also slowly getting better 

So maybe life isn't always miserable, I think part of why I was doing so bad was probably just because I was projecting all of that energy

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Btw I'll edit the Wishlist again and put a few new pages on here stuffed with advice, clothes, music and so on ;)

All in all, stay positive guys! 

Write for y'all soon!

XX, Artemis 💋💋

Yapping about my boyfriend...

Hello guysss

today I wanted to talk about something a little more personal, I really feel the need to share it because I know for a fact there might be more people out there that feel the same way rn.

Soo basically, I'm with my boyfriend now for almost 7 months, we've had something going on alot earlier tho (I mean like start of 2025 early but we do know each other for about 6 years).

I do love him alot and I'm always trying my best and even letting things slide that my old self would've left him instantly for..

Fast forward, at the start of our "situationship" everything went really great, but he does deal with addiction since over a year now while I'm sober for almost 3 years. I've had the choice, either deal with it and try to help him or leave him. (Let's forget about the leaving part... that would've never happened anyways)

The main point now is def not his addiction or me not leaving him, it's about the way his actions make me feel at the moment.

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Example:

Have you ever felt like you weren't enough for someone you loved, no matter what you do for them? They don't ever acknowledge the things you do for them. Instead they take you for granted and just continue with their shitty behaviour towards you. 

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I've told him that his behaviour makes me feel less worth and that it also feels like he never once thinks about me or puts in effort in the relationship.

I never once got flowers, and I don't mean to over exaggerate because I don't only need nor want alot of flowers or presents, it's the thought behind gifts that count, I'm not a material person anyway... I'd rather have him buy me something small like fucking gummy bears or wtv with the words "I bought them for you because I know you like those. It doesn't even have to be that likeee, just spend time with me for once instead of meeting with ur friends every day.

Is this too much to ask for? Am I too much of an effort for him?

Ohhh and don't get me started at those fucking OF Models / Pornstars he watches/watched. I do not want to go into detail about how I found out but this shit is fucking gross omg. I promise I usually don't curse like this but honestly... this shit has to be ragebait. Why would you watch naked women fucking twerking their ass into the camera while having a girlfriend u claim to "love" and them even being the OPPOSITE of her. And not even that, searching specific names up and jerking off to them? duh. I don't have anything I wanna say to this topic anymore because it makes me sick.

He promised he'd stop...... soo umm, we'll see how that goes :')

I didn't plan for this to be so long tho, I'm sorry, but as the Title says I'm literally just yapping und writing whatever comes into my mind. I just had to let it out for a sec.

Love y'all, write for u soon xx,

Artemis :3

That sums up - March

 Soo, here's a bit of everything that's on my mind lately...

Music:

Music has been my safe space for March. Ive been switching between calm, almost melancholic songs and tracks that instantly shift my mood.

It's honestly crazy how one song can change the entire energy of your day.

I've also noticed that I'm paying more attention to lyrics lately, not just the sound, but the meaning behind the words.

Some songs feel like they were written for moments I didn't even know I needed.

Click here so you can listen to my current playlist :)

Thoughts:

I've been thinking alot about growth. Not in a forced "I need to be better" kind of way, but more in the sense of slowly evolving my thoughts, my priorities and the way I see things.

It does feel overwhelming sometimes, but at the same time, it's kinda comforting to know that change is possible and a natural part of life.

Little things that made me happy:

• The feeling of the first warm sunlight on my skin after the weather was cold for so long

• Songs that came on on at the perfect time

• Moments where my chest felt less heavy

• Convos with my best friends

• Small things that might feel insignificant for most people but were meaningful for me

Current Vibe:

I'd say my vibe right now is calm, a little reflective and slightly dreamy.

I'm trying to take things slower and honestly, just go with the flow, even if it's not always easy.

Ending Note:  

I'm not writing this because everything is perfect, but exactly because it isn't.

Maybe that's the whole point: to simply capture where you are in life without overanalyzing it.

Love y'all!!!

I'll be back soon :3